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Wednesday, February 28, 2007
It's Meant To Be That Way

Irene is in love. <3 <3 <3 haha. Iloffyou, biatch :*

Again, I couldn't remember much of what happened today.

We watched Dekada '70 during Filipino class. It's a cool movie, kinda funny too, actually. =)) we, too, watched a film in Health class. I doubt it if anyone knew the details to the documentary we watched. Everyone was asleep:)) we couldn't help it, it was too boring.

Tonight was fun. :] it was just like before.. That kind of fun. Good friends kind of fun. I could do it pala. ;] even if I still don't think of him as just a 'friend' (because obviously it's more than that), it's so much better this way. :] more stories to share, more laughters and smiles, no more tears!

Well I hope so. I know that sooner or later I'd once again have my lonely nights and I'd be crying myself to sleep again, but I guess I just have to deal with it. This is how my life goes. In the midst of the tears, the pain, the brokenness, here comes the joy, the fun, and the excitement.

Maybe my life was meant to be that way. :]

Oh and btw, I changed my layout. :] actually, this one's so plain. It's just black&white. No bg images at all. Wala lang. =)) I'd go plain for now.

Irene and I are getting our lanyards soon! We're excited. :)) thanks, Ate Bei!



Too bad Raymond said no. =)) I'M GOING TO MAKE HIM JEALOUS. >:) I'LL HAVE MY BRASIL LANYARD AND HE WON'T! Bwahahahahaha :>

Btfw, the computer project's pissing me off. It's so freakkin' hard. But mucho thanks to Ms. Lariba for extending our deadline AGAIN. Iloffyou miss! :*

Okaaaay, must get back to work.

20 more school days left! YAY.
-- for us CHSians, our last day (24th) is early. We used to end classes on the 1st of April=))

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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
All For The Sake Of Love

Abused.

People have been telling me that and I know that I am. I really do care about it, but I hide it. I allow myself to get hurt, I allow myself to breakdown.

All for the sake of love.

No matter how much I try to leave it all behind, it just keeps on coming along. The moment I become ready to throw it all away, there comes a reason for things to stay. After wasting buckets of tears, I decide to hold on.

All for the sake of love.

I wish I could learn to lie to myself. To tell myself that I'm better off with someone else. To tell myself to hang loose (or maybe even let go). To tell myself to stop. To tell myself such nasty things about him (just to hurt myself and finally decide to leave). To tell myself to tear my heart open and release everything about him.

Just so it will all end up that way. Him out of my life.

Now, wouldn't that be great?
No more tears. No more lonely nights. No more sweet dreams and tearful mornings.

IF ONLY IT WAS EASY TO DICTATE TO A HEART.
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Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Just Because I Am Bored

I searched down for icons and quotes. ;) I hope you guys enjoy. :D

I love the first few icons. :)) they're funny.


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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Ghosts

This day was full of ghost stories :)

It all started during Spanish period because of Sir Maturan. We spent the whole 50 minutes just sharing ghost stories. It was fun. ;) but I really don't know why, yes, I freak out (on some) but I don't really get scared. It's weird. :|

TLE time ROCKS man! :| :)) I got cut in the finger! Yeah I know it hurts but I'm extremely fine now. :D and I thought I was numb from all sorts of pain, I guess I was wrong. :)) it bled like a fountain, mind you. I enjoyed watching my blood spill like some whatever but I was in pain. =)) I had to go to the clinic. :P

I love Nata de Coco. =)) I curse Fruit Cocktail cans now. I really do. =))

Dismissal was fun. I spent it with different people. I had scramble and kwek-kwek with Ara and Fer, Sheena and Brigitte. :D after eating, we went to the gym and we watched the basketball training. <3 <3 <3 okay stop. :| when all of my friends left I went to the main gate and spent some time with Tin, Bebe and Edlynne. They kept on making up names like Rayrix, Hairix, Erimond, Erizel, Edrix, and the like. OKAAAAY. I was with Edlynne after, we just went inside the school, kulitan. :] I have a new love.. the cat! ;)) anyway whatever. What is a date without food? And uh, no conversations? =)) LOL. Franz made pisil my cut and Edlynne .. pinitik niya. :( it bled so much more =))))) sucks.

Mind you, it still is bleeding up to this minute. TIBAY. I'm short on blood now. =))

When Edlynne left, I stayed with Haizel. Talk here, talk there. Coach arrives, I talk to coach. Then this becomes a habit. :)) I AGAIN RODE WITH THEM TILL THE END OF MENDIOLA. Ona, araw-araw na and I don't know why:)) well, coach makes me ride with them, that's one.

Anyway.

I want more ghost stories. :] feed me with them and I wish to get scared. SERIOUSLY. :|

My pointer finger on my right hand hurts. :| it's the one that has the cut. The bone hurts when I stretch the finger. :| fudge. And someone's mad at me for not being cautious. :((
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Monday, February 19, 2007
I can still keep up.

After more or less two weeks, I again had training after classes. I missed volleyball :] though I was in a pretty bad mood during training (because of some reason I don't know), Coach said I had a nice play. :]

After training I was really pissed off (because of a different reason from earlier) but oh well, I just have to deal with it, AGAIN. I'm pretty much used to my situation right now so it's not that big a deal to me anymore. I've learned how to keep myself grounded and happy even through something that's bothering me now. I'm all in pain again, but I guess I'm becoming numb. I really can't let go. After all the things that has happened to me before (all the smiles and frowns), I've gone too far to let things slip away. I won't quit fighting for my feelings, not just yet. I can still handle. I can still keep up.

I had dinner with Coach and Haizel after training. I got to chat with them for quite a long time again. Naiinggit talaga ako. :( I wish my life would get better. To be more precise: my love life. Oh, and Haizel, my birthday's after the 23rd, kaay? You won't forget. :)))) I rode with them 'til the end of the street again. It's so much fun. =))

Malaki ang topak ko ngayon. Why? Depressed. :(

I want to cry so bad, but I've ran out of tears to spill.

....

I posted this a few days back, but I'm posting it again.

Things a girl wants a guy to know:
1. We love it when you cuddle with us
2. A kiss on the cheek is a definite yes
3. We want your arm around us at the movies
4. We don't care if you're the strongest guy in the world
5. Size doesn't matter, so don't tell us
6. We don't always look our best, so get over it
7. We shouldn't have to plan everything
8. We're always ready to talk so call us
9. We're not perfect..so deal with it
10. We love surprises
11. The little things you do mean the most
12. We're not always girly girls
13. We can like boy stuff too
14. Cursing and fighting don't impress us
15. Don't be mean to us to get our attention
16. Don't tell us who's hott because we don't care
17. Hugs mean more sometimes
18. When we say we're cold, that's our invitation to come closer
19. We can tell when you're not listening..so listen up
20. We need your advice sometimes, so don't be afraid to give it to us

OKAY? :|


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Sunday, February 18, 2007
One month

It's been a month now since something happened. It's been only a month when it feels like it's been too long. One month of ups and downs, of misunderstandings, of tears, of bliss, of what-not, and the like. One month, for chrissake.

Happy birthday Haizel. And Karenina. :)
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Quotes.

you know you really love someone
when you can`t even hate them for `-----
b r e a k i n g __ your heart. <3 xoxo

Oh shit. :|



Relate-able quotes suck. :| :))
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Field trip + Concert

Yesterday was a really long and tiring day.

We had our field trip. I actually don't know the exact places we went to, basta they're all in Laguna. We thought it would be near, but we were wrong:)) we went to Paete, the wood carving place thingy. It's so cool there. :D then to UPLB I think. We had lunch there then we went to some museum and me and my friends went "butterflying" :)) we went up this mountain if I'm not mistaken just to see some uh, Idk. Basta, we went up some place, it was really tiring. But I loved it :) because of some certain reason... =)) we also went to this milk factory and Jan kept on taking blackmail shots:))

In the bus, on the way to Laguna we watched 10 Things I Hate About You. We got to finish the whole movie even before we reached Laguna. :| while going around Laguna (it took us an hour and a half to go to UPLB I think), we watched The Nun. That corny movie :| I just slept through it. :)) then going home we had Stepford Wives on. :) while watching The Nun, we had Eurotrip on the portable dvd player:P

I just slept in the bus most of the time:)) well not really, I was thinking about someone a lot :|

We arrived at school at around 8 pm already. We all headed straight to the concert. I was with Sheena, we watched basketball first. We went to the concert along with Raymond, JP and Angelo. The concert disappointed me. :| well, not because of the bands or so, but, it ruined my day. Maybe because of some certain college girls.... or something he said. I don't know, but I was in a bad mood the whole concert time.

Maybe I just shouldn't hope too much. Not again.

I won't be able to go to the LSGH Fair today. :(
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Thursday, February 15, 2007
CHSM Fair Day Two

I LOVE THIS DAY. :) it was a really long one, though.

I won't go into detail.

I first hung out with Mel, Xanthia and Darryl. We watched the cheering competition. The champions rocked. I loved their cheer. :D I spent the rest of the day with Angelie and Fer, then later on with Sheena. 500 pesos -- all gone. :)) food is so tempting. :|

There were only a few events this day. We did almost nothing. We just kept on walking around, hanging out, singing out loud, lying down on the Air bed, telling stories to each other, taking pictures, and the like.

I got a small puppy stuffed toy from Fer. We bought gifts for each other :] I got Angelie "Mickey Rat" :)) she named it. She's weird. 8)

I got into a petty fight in the afternoon, but things are totally cleared up now. I spent the latter part of the afternoon with Keisha. And Berms. We watched the mock basketball game. They played two games. It was already night time before they finished their game. I waited for Raymond since he was the one I was going to the concert with:) it was all worth it, the wait I mean. :)) *mmmhmmmm. ;D* we went inside the auditorium after the game. We only watched a few parts of the dance concert since he had to leave and I wanted to go with him. ;)

_{I love the mushroom seats. And the auditorium:)))))))}

I said I wouldn't go into detail because I'm obliged to sleep early tonight. To sum it all up, this day was a happy day for me. :) I love my day. To be more precise, I LOVE THIS NIGHT. :D

Last words?
Apologies accepted. :)
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CHSM Fair Day One

CHSM Fair Day One: VALENTINES DAY :)

First of all, belated happy valentines to everyone :)

Our school fair started yesterday and as expected, it wasn't that fun. The opening was pretty weird. The 3rd year students danced. The Dance League danced. Plus there was the tribe who performs at school every event. It's fun to watch the tribe:))

After all that, we just ate. And ate. And ate. WHAT ELSE WAS THERE TO DO???

I got balloons from my friends. :) thanks, my valentines! :D Sheena was so sweet. ;P they cut classes =)) I was with Alpha most of the time. I love them all. ;D

Fer joined the Campus Diva thing. SHE ROCKS HARD! I love Fer. ;) I love her number. It was the best. Especially the smoke and lightning effects. =)) haha. Basta, it was really great. I took a video of it. :D it's in my Multiply. She won 2nd runner up but it was okay. Everybody loved her. Haha. Fer, break na kayo ni Ara. Tayo nalang. :)) okay, kidding. FYI: Fer's not lesbo and she's not with Ara. =)) I LOVE YOU FER! YOU ROCK:D

The Pyramus and Thisbe play was after. We had a few mishaps but it was okay. We were still able to do it. ;) Everybody loves Emman. =)) he rocks.

Pictures: my Multiply. :)

Day two later. Let's see what'll happen. :))
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Sunday, February 11, 2007
MOA

We had our show at MOA earlier. It turned out okay, I guess. We made a lot of mistakes. Well, I did. I just don't know for the others. I was pretty late for the warm-up so I didn't join them. We had rehearsals right after and there were a lot of people watching us. :)) we had more audience during the rehearsals than the actual show. :P we ate snacks after. It took us a long time to look for the atm machine:)) after all those walking and stuff, we (Julia, Rozel, Karenina and I) ended up buying food at Mcdo=)) and people recognized us (that we were the ones dancing ballet a few moments ago), how funny. :P

We went back to the venue after and we readied (?) ourselves. It was pretty hot and windy at the same time. :| 'twas hard to prepare ourselves. :)) the show started at 6 pm. It ended at 7. I made a lot of mistakes during the dance but thank God it wasn't that noticeable. =))

We ate dinner at Bacolod Chicken Inasal (if I'm not mistaken). Most of the ballerinas ate there since teacher gave us free GCs. :)) then I had Starbucks after. I really can't keep up with my promise of not having Starbucks until November. =)) I can't resist. :P

Oh, and Edlynne, thanks for coming, even if I didn't see you. :| :))

Congratulations to my twin Mica and and and..... someone. :)) Twin, FINALLY! After a long long time. =)) I'm happy for you. And him. :P :P :P kinilig naman ako sa story. :P I'm damn jealous. >:(
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Saturday, February 10, 2007
Family Day

We had our Family Day earlier:) it was okay.

We arrived a bit late for the mass, but we didn't join it. I was just with my friends at the mushroom seats. Everybody started arriving then. We had our Field Demo after the mass. It was really hot in the quadrangle. :| took a lot of pictures. My favorite's the fight scene picture of me and Nicole. It's cool:)) I love it. :) my mom took most of the pictures. :) our class muse was Batchi, while the escort was Irene's bro. Batchi got so kilig. :P

We finally went back to the gym after. We've had enough sun:)) we changed into our family day shirts and whatever then Nicole and I realized that we didn't have socks. :| so we had to borrow. We borrowed Kenneth's soccer socks. Wow. :| just for the sake of having socks. :|

There was a singing competition and band numbers. No offense, but Rockstitution (freshmen) rocked harder than Luminescence (sophomores). :)) the cheering competition started right after. We made a couple of mistakes on our dance, but good thing it wasn't that noticeable. Piety's rocked. GO JONEL! ;)) oh, and we won 2nd place! Yay. :) not bad. :D

I introduced Raymond to my mom. :) it was a funny event. Raymond was shy. :P and my mom was so.... I can't explain. :)) but she was extremely cool. =)) she even gave him a muffin she baked. :| :))

I was with Sheena most of the time. Just as expected, after lunch, everyone loitered around. It was pretty boring in the gym, so we walked around. There were lots of people. Lots of kids. :] most of whom were cute. :]

A lot of my friends left early and I do not know why. I didn't even notice some leave. :)) I was left with Sheena, and when she was gone, I was with sina Raymond. Mikko's sister was so cute. :] and they said we look alike. So does that mean I'm cute, too? Kidding. =))) Raymond took over my camera!!!!!!!!!!!

By the end of the event, only 13 students of Understanding stood strong. =)) a lot left us hanging there. =)) and it's GREAT, we won 7th place over-all. OUT OF 7. =)) oh well, we don't really mind. We got 2nd place in the cheering thingy anyway. :P

I went to ballet right after. :( I was really tired. :| oh, we have a show tomorrow! Go and watch :] at MOA. 6pm.

This day was LONG. Time was so slow in the morning. Really slow. :|



For more pictures, click this. ;)
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Thursday, February 8, 2007
Practice all-day!

We had no classes today!
I mean, we were at school, yes, but we didn't have any lessons or so. :)

We practiced for the field demo the whole morning. Mind you, it was pretty boring:)) but it was fun in between stuff. I slept the first part:)) then I listened to the music on Genie's iPod with Angelie after. Our current favorite: Under The Bridge by The Red Hot Chili Peppers. I know it's old but we love it:)) we looked like weirdos earlier, must I say. But it was really fun :> we were in the gym the whole morning. Just imagine the heat. :| thank God for hand-held fans as our props for our dance. ;)

After lunch, we still practiced for the field demo, the finale to be precise. I am really starting to dislike one person. Masyado kasing pakialamera. :| oh well. We practiced our cheer dance and yells afterwards. I LOVE III-UNDERSTANDING! We rock, don't we? ;) I lovelovelove our cheer dance. ;D we can do this. ;P

Cheer dance practice rocked. Though we had problems in the start, we fixed it in the end. I really love our dance:)) but I'm not expecting victory. We wouldn't want to feel the same disappointment we felt during the 1st run of Pyramus and Thisbe, right Understanding? ;) I love the lifts and stunts. Videos would be uploaded soon. ;P the "Me & You session" with Shobe, Elisha, Dowee, Emily, Shanine, etc., in the soc hall earlier was FUN. Super fun. If we only took videos of it:)) Now we know the people to invite to a dance party. WE ROCK:)) j'adore theee "Me&You session" and "lifting moments" :))

Pyramus and Thisbe practice was held during dismissal time. Ms. Sadiwa was super strict, it was scary. :)) but it was all professional. :)

ALL WE DID TODAY WAS PRACTICE.
.. and it says in our schedule that we were supposed to have 7 academic periods. :))
... but yay for us. Practice all day, baby! ;D
.... tomorrow again? ;)

I'm Not that Girl - Wicked

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl:

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl:

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl:

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Wednesday, February 7, 2007
7th ;)

First of all, happy 15th birthday Sheena && Brigette Bonus! ;) Love you both. :*

Today's the 7th of February. Mmhmmm....

I can't remember much of what happened today. I just remember that we did a lot of practices.. for the field demo and cheer dance. :) plus a long test in Chemistry which I wasn't prepared for. :))

When I got home, I just watched the 30-minute long videos taken by Genie using her phone. I loved them. HILARIOUS. I loved last Saturday. ;)) I finally have a copy of the scandalous videos we took that day. =)) but I won't upload them. I'm not allowed to. Not yet. =))

Oh, and I love Ara. :) I have lots of blackmail pictures now. =)) bwahahaha. Kidding.

I've been eating too much lately. I wasn't able to keep my promise:( it's sad. There are times that I have a big appetite, meanwhile there are times that I hardly have one. :)) and and and... WHY IS SCRAMBLE SOOOOOOOOO DELICIOUS??? :|

...

So confused, my heart's bruised. Was I ever loved by you?


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Saturday, February 3, 2007
Pyramus and Thisbe Practice

I am excited for the 2nd run of Pyramus&Thisbe. ;)

We had our first rehearsal earlier and it was really fun! I arrived at school at around 8-ish or something. I first had breakfast with Isay and Bebe at Mcdo. Rehearsal was supposed to start at 8:30, but we started at 9 something. ;) as usual, we started with the breathing exercises. We didn't do much at first.

Nothing can beat the fun experience during lunch break:)) I love Emman to bits and pieces :)) we ate lunch at Mcdo (where else? :|), then we went back to school. The "events" in the assembly hall were just hilarious. I loved it when Emman carried me then we spun around in circles. It was fun. Yet I got really really dizzy. There were a lot more than that. We were removing each other's bra locks:)) and we were harassing Emman. =)) we, too, played a game of Truth or Dare -- which was btw scandalous. :| Genie took so much videos. I'll upload some when I get them. ;P

We practiced the play again after. Breathing exercises again. The "boom tarat" exercise was funny. They all laughed at me when I did it. :)) and I laughed along. =)) okay whatev. My knees hurt. Totally. I have 2 big bruises again. :|

I hung out with Irene after, while waiting for her sundo. We talked about a lot of stuff. It's weird that we talked about .... :))

Even though I was tired from practice, I still went to ballet :| Thea was in Shang! We missed her:))

Pictures @ my Multiply. ;) I have a few. I'll steal from Genevieve once she uploads. :) we're not allowed to post the rehearsal videos YET. We will after the play itself. Too much surprises. ;) but we'll be posting the lunch break videos. Those are the best. :))

For a more detailed story about what happened today, go to Irene's blog ;) I'm too tamad to go into too much detail. :))
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Friday, February 2, 2007
Certain stuff ;)

Things a girl wants a guy to know:
1. We love it when you cuddle with us
2. A kiss on the cheek is a definite yes
3. We want your arm around us at the movies
4. We don't care if you're the strongest guy in the world
5. Size doesn't matter, so don't tell us
6. We don't always look our best, so get over it
7. We shouldn't have to plan everything
8. We're always ready to talk so call us
9. We're not perfect..so deal with it
10. We love surprises
11. The little things you do mean the most
12. We're not always girly girls
13. We can like boy stuff too
14. Cursing and fighting don't impress us
15. Don't be mean to us to get our attention
16. Don't tell us who's hott because we don't care
17. Hugs mean more sometimes
18. When we say we're cold, that's our invitation to come closer
19. We can tell when you're not listening..so listen up
20. We need your advice sometimes, so don't be afraid to give it to us


Things a guy should do to make a girl happy:
1. tell her how much she means to you.
2. tell her she's beautiful or she's your angel.
3. sing to her even though your voice sucks.
4. kiss her in the rain.
5. dance with her under the stars.
6. hold her hand at anytime no matter what.
7. hold her tight
8. show her that she's the one.
9. introduce her to your friends as your girlfriend.
10. give her flowers.
11. treat her the same way you treat your friends.
12. kiss her hand.
13. hug her
14. call her once in a while just to tell her you miss her.
15. give her a teddy bear
16. dont tell her that you adore her, tell her you love her.
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Thursday, February 1, 2007
Got Myself Confused:))

Do I miss you? I guess I could say no, I don't miss you. I miss the boy I fell in love with. the one who called me not because he had to but because he wanted to. the boy who would hold my hand and open the car door every chance he got. who I could argue with for hours upon hours about nothing then laugh about it later. I miss the boy who wasn't afraid to be himself around me. the boy who would be sad if we didn't hang out everyday. but most of all i miss the boy I could trust. that's who I miss...how could I miss you. you're not that boy anymore..

I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice. I'm mad for always apologizing for things I didn't do. I'm mad for getting attached. I'm mad for depending on you and wasting my time on you. I'm mad for thinking about you, and most of all for not hating you when I should.

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