Masquerade, masquerade; PAPER FACES ON PARADE.

Sunday, July 30, 2006
PROJECTS!

2 projects down, 2 more to go!

Yay! Finally, I've done something productive today. :D I've finished my project for social studies and English ;D now, I must finish my computer and health projects =)))))

I'm gonna blog about yesterday (:

I went to school 'cause we had this practice for the culminating activity for the Nutrition Month. I got there at 11:45 :P haha. Since I'm the director (?! eh? Sir said so :|) of the show, I had to attend rehearsals. The whole time I was in the balcony of the auditorium, where the sound system was. I was in charge of the music of the show. :)) the songs are baduyy. :| and the song for the formal wear just made me feel sleepy. Mind you, I fell asleep for a moment when I was there =)))) rehearsals ended at 2:30 and I was just really hungry I went to Mcdonald's with Irene right after ;D we went back to school since I knew that the choir was still there and that someone was still there, too. =)) I waited for this someone but when this someone showed up, we didn't talk to each other :)) I just can't :| and I don't know why :((((( he always makes my heart skip a beat. ALWAYS. Every time I see him. And every time I see him, ~~I always want to cry~~, but I just really can't :(

I went to a wedding afterwards. The wedding of someone whom I really don't know:)) lolo Bert just invited us so okay. ;D I was with Nina, mama and tita Annette. We met new people .. Francis and Nicole. And maybe Kevin as well ;D they were fun to be with. They're the pamangkins of lolo Bert. Francis can't speak in Tagalog 'cause he's based in L.A. but he's pure Filipino .. so we taught him how to speak in Tagalog:)) he's so funny. Haha. Nina and I (and yeah, Francis took a sip, too) drank red wine=)) Nina turned so red but she still would not stop :P LOL. The food was nice, we were addicted to the fondue! :)) sadly, we only knew there was mango crepe when we were in the car since sila mama told us so (we were in a different table :P). :|

Should I or shouldn't I go to ballet today? Mama said I must go, but mom said if I won't finish my projects then I won't. I don't want to go in the first place=))) but mama's mapilit and it sucks :(

I have to finish my projects now. :| Ttfn! :(

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Saturday, July 29, 2006
Confusion

I was (errr, I still am. :|) watching something and I remembered something .. I remembered the time when I was talking to him on the phone, and when we were frequently texting and calling each other on our cellphones. Awww, I miss that. And I'm saddened since I know that it can never happen again. :(

He's so hot. :P And he was so cute when he was small :P LOL. All that I was able to say was "OMG is that him? Or.. was that him? He's so cute" haha. EVEN if I have been seeing him as a child .. since he was a child:)) FUNNY.

Seriously, ~~my heart is confused.~~ I have no idea on who I like most, on who I want to forget, on who I can't let go of even if I want to and stuff. And I feel bad for myself since among all the people I like, no one's like .. possible. :|

OKAY THEN.

Why am I having difficulties in starting my projects? IHATEIT.

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I Want Some More PUSSYCAT!

PCD rocked my night! Araneta was so full I can barely breathe, but it was all worth it. :D The Pussycat Dolls rocked! I lost my voice again :)) But hey, I lost my voice for something :P oh, and I saw a lot of people I knew (by the way, nice seeing you guys :P). Surprisingly, I bumped into my cousins (I didn't know they were watching) haha so we watched together :D

Until now, I can't believe that I actually watched them perform. Nicole even cried since she felt love from her fellow Filipinos :D we're proud. Haha. I really love PCD! Can't wait till they come back and perform here again. (:

I wanted to go to the stage earlier for the "show us what you got" part, but unfortunately I wasn't able to since I was just at the upper box. :| but hey, I knew someone who did. Eldric (if you watched, then you'll know who I'm talking about :P), a friend of my ate. :D Everyone (and yes, I mean everyone) was cheering for him (or should I say her? Kidding.) when he was on stage. I wonder how that felt? I mean, everyone in Araneta (and that's like a gazillion people) cheering for you, screaming for you like you're a star. I wanted to feel that, too. :P Haha!

I'll be uploading the ~~suckish~~ video that I took, and the recording of Stickwitu later on, when my phone gets fixed probably.

Ttfn! Must do projects now. :D

PUSSYCATDOLLS is LOVE <3

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Impossible

I must learn how to blog using only points of view, no truths. Why? So that if ever I am going to get into trouble, I'll get into lesser trouble, and I will still say safe.

.. but that seems impossible. Considering how giddy I get when blogging, and how much words I use just to express what I feel. WTH. :|

** for the nth time, I watched High School Musical again earlier. =D the movie's just so cool and it's fun to watch. The songs move me and make me want to sing and dance =D haha. Great, now my LSS has just gotten worse :))

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Food, food, food!

For the past few days my family and I have been eating out for dinner.

[1] last wednesday, we (lolo Ado, lolo Bert, tita Annette, mama, papa and myself) ate in Saisaki to celebrate the arrival of lolo Bert from the States;
[2] last thursday, we (lolo Ado, lolo Bert, tita Bambi, tita Faye, tito Choco, mama, papa, and myself) ate in Super Bowl of China in Promenade to celebrate the last day of lolo Ado here in the Philippines; and
[3] last night, we (mom, lola, lola Leda, lolo Ed, lolo Caloy, lolo Vic, tito 18, tita Corrinne (?), ninang Tina, ninong Jun, and myself) ate in Little Asia in Tomas Morato to celebrate lolo Vic and lolo Caloy's last day here in Manila.

Boy, did it ruin my diet :| HAHAHA! I had to have a big appetite for those :)) Saisaki is the bomb -- gotta love it there; one of my favorites :D when we were in Super Bowl, I wanted to go to ~~Floyd's~~ for ice cream :)) hahaha. Last night in Little Asia, we had so much food I can barely breathe :)) I ordered a Crepe Samurai for dessert, never thought it would like that. Haha. It looked like (and tasted like) panna cotta (which is my favorite, btw) lol. And, I was planning to order some drinks, but I didn't. Mum told me to try this certain kind of beer which I forgot the name, the next time I go somewhere where they sell drinks, I'll tell mum to buy me one. Hahaha :D

Oh, and for the first time in 2 months, I slept at 3 AM again. :))

I'm sorry if this post is nonsense. Ttfn. (;

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Monday, July 24, 2006
And again..

NO SCHOOL TOMORROW (: yay :D

Must do projects NOW. Or I can leave that thought for tomorrow :)) LAZY ASS ON THE GO again. :|

* It's pretty obvious that ~~she likes him now~~, and there's this 99.99% chance that he WILL like her back. OH NO. :/

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Desperate guys? A big no-no for me.

I'm not up for guys who seem desperate, I'm sorry.

Let's just say some guy is annoying me. :| WHY CAN'T HE STOP? :|

I'm craving for more sugar waffles from Vienna. :| do you understand? FROM VIENNA! So I just have to fly to Vienna so that I can have more of those sugar waffles -- which by the way gave me a ~~toothache.~~

The family's eating out earlier .. somewhere in Morato (: I'm hungry. Haha. :))

PCD concert in 4 days! I'm excited. Who's coming? See you there :D I can't wait! HAHAHA.

The soundtrack of High School Musical just rocks :D

* I know you're not a fairy tale *

Okay so this post is too random, and I shall end this now. Ttfn! ;)

P.S. I like someone again. And that someone is my old someone :)) WEH. I like someone again, me likey someone again, I likey likey that guy again. HAHAHAHA. But I know that it can't be. :|

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Headache.

No classes today, hooray!

But still I'm not that happy .. my phone's dysfunctional. :| it can't send stuff to the pc and vice versa -- HOW ANNOYING. Oh well.

Yesterday turned out to be a great day. Well, not so great, but it was better than what I expected. Mind you, going to church made me feel so much better for myself. :D I didn't go to ballet, whoops! I went to Rockwell with my relatives again :D for the first time, I went there without spending so much. The first time I spent exactly 200 pesos ONLY. :)) oh, and also the first time I entered Zara without actually fitting and buying anything. :)) maybe I wasn't just in the mood yesterday. My tita even told my other tita that I wasn't as gastadora as I was before, my ate, too. I took it as a compliment. Hahaha. :D well at least, I am somehow money wise now :)) and wow, people have been noticing how quiet I am nowadays. And mind you, people think I'm keeping a secret -- because that's how they see me. I mean, I look like I'm keeping too many secrets, the reason behind my silence. WEIRD but gyeah, I also feel too quiet now. What can I say? I'm maturing. Hahaha yuck, I can't believe I just said that :P

I enjoy chatting with my cousin. I love it every time she tells me stories about her life, about college life. Now, I can't wait until I get to college :)) Seems like a lot of fun. High school's pressure .. pressure, really. Haha. I want to get to college as soon as possible :)) weird much? Whatever :P

I haven't done anything productive today aside from removing my pearl necklace thingy for my phone from the electric fan (if that was even productive :P and mind you, the sound of the pearls getting hit by the fan's thingy hurt my ears, and it ~~frightened me.~~ So much for that.)

Last night, I came to think that I don't want to fall in love again. :)) well, not until my hot and sophisticated Prince Charming (wow, dream on :P) would come and pick me up, whoever that Prince Charming may be :)) as of now, I do not want to have a boyfriend :)) I want my life to be as perfect as it can be -- without a boyfriend (let's just see about that :P), having good grades, not having to stoop down to other people's level in society (don't get me wrong, just try to get what I mean :P), strive to fulfill my dreams and all those other blahblahs. Oh and to you (yes you, kidding. Basta, someone :P), please stop asking me if I like you, that's just too kapal :)) and mind you, every time you ask me that question, you make me want to slap you. One thing's for sure: all your text messages, pa-cute effects and stuff won't make me fall for you the ~~second time around~~, OKAY? I'm not THAT CHEAP, I'm not easy to get.

Okay, I'm becoming non-sense again (and talk about mean :|) :)) I'll blog again later.

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Saturday, July 22, 2006
I Have To Learn The Art Of Letting Go

This is my ~~fourth post~~ for today, I think. Oh well.

No school on mondayyyy, which means that my butt'll just be stuck on this chair .. again:)) more internet for me, yay! But I must do projects, I must start them now. Heehee. Lazy ass, I'm tinatamad. LOL.

I'm having ballet in a few, so I'll be back on monday, I guess. I'm just waiting for mi papa now, he's bringing me my extra USB cable -- and I hope that it would make me happy now :)) heehee.

I hope tomorrow would never have to come. I gotta dread tomorrow the most. Gah. I'm saying this for the nth time to myself .. I HATE HIM. But why can't I let go???

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Not Pure Bliss; Just Simply Contentment

A picturesque score of passing fantasy...

This is how it should be.

My life has never become more lamer than this. Has never become more desperate than this. I need a life with contentment and satisfaction -- not pure bliss -- because pure bliss is just evil, and it can hurt so bad.

.. and I need a guy to kiss :x ahihi.

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Reminiscence Of The Past

Oh, I forgot to blog about one skill I enhanced yesterday :)) we had cooking for TLE yesterday, and our group cooked some Italian cuisine. We chose to cook Bolognese so that it won't be that difficult. I loved sauteing (sp?) the veggies, adding on the beef, and cooking the sauce. Haha. It smelled so good, I kept on tasting what I was cooking using the wooden spatula:)) Haha. I just had to share that. :P

Tomorrow is a day that I will dread most. Why? ~~Check the date.~~ Check the date. GAAAAAH. And one more thing, it bothers me that he's always in my dreams. Mind you, for the 5th straight night he was in my dreams.

This was in text --
Him: Good night, (bladibladibla.. I won't tell :P) sama mo ko sa dreams mo! Joke. (:
Me: Good night din. Don't worry, lagi ka naman nasa dreams ko, eh! Haha.. (more blahblahs :P)

OMG I remember that night. Reminiscence of the past. THIS SUCKS.

.. oh, and the USB thing for my phone still isn't functioning well, LIFE SUCKS.

I tried to make you happy, but you left anyway..*

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Yes, it's true
You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
Especially when it comes to you

You already knew that I was all yours..
What were you waiting for?

I am pissed. The USB thing for my phone isn't working well. And the computer won't detect my phone's infrared device -- so I'm left with no method to use to send stuff to and from the PC. How annoying.

Anyway, kill me now. I'm going to answer a survey -- just because I am bored.

**

WRATH

1. Who did you last get angry with? Ooooh. Someone. And might I say that I remain angry with that someone until .. now.

2. What is your weapon of choice? I don't know, actually.

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? :))

4. How about of the same sex? Why not? :P I'm kidding. :P

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? I have no idea..

6. What is your pet peeve? Oooh. Insects bebe!

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I keep them, then let go.

SLOTH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? Hmmm.. I can't think.

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? In the summer, I can wake up at 5 PM. Haha.

3. Who have you been meaning to contact, but haven't? I don't know, actually

4. What is the last lame excuse you made? I forgot

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? Hah! Yeah :))

6. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I don't use one, because it will be of no use.

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? None, really.

2. Meat eaters are? Normal? Hehe

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting outing or event? I can't think :)) 4-5 glasses, maybe? Haha. Of Vodka that is. (:

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Nope

5. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? Spicy baby!

LUST

1. How many people have you seen completely naked? Haven't, really.

2. How many people have seen YOU completely naked? I'm not so sure:))

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Hah, yeah. I can't help it, it was too disturbing :)) it was too ... intense :))

4. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Abs. Haha.

5. Have you ever been made a proposition by a prostitute? What the..

6. Have you ever had a pregnancy test? Never even seen one..

7. Is love at first sight or really lust? Lust. Hello? Common sense! :))

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own? None. Haha.

2. What's your guilty pleasure store/brand? Zara. LOL.

3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Buy a new phone, a whole closet of clothes, and uh, eat :))

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Rich! Oh yeah (:

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Nah, I'm not the sugapa-sa-pera type of person

6. Have you ever stolen anything? Yeah, in some way

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? Idk.

PRIDE

1. What is one thing that you've done that you're most proud of? Hmmm...

2. One thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Ask them. Haha!

3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? Hay naku, there are a lot :P

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Hell yeah!

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? Hahaha..

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Yeah

7. What did you do today that you're proud of? I sang during the morning assembly :)) WOW. That was something new. Hahaha!

ENVY

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? The perfect boyfriend. Hahaha!

2. Who would you want to go on "trading spaces" with? Wala naman...

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? I will always be just me, I guess.

4. Have you ever been cheated on? Hah. Can I not answer this question? :|

5. Have you ever cheated? Nope, I'd never do that.

6. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Yeah..

7. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Hahaha. Every time I hear the 7 deadly sins, the first thing that comes to my mind is the America's Next Top Model Cycle 4, and during that shoot, I totally loved Kahlen :)) okay so I shared. Haha. Uhm, wrath I suppose :))

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Friday, July 21, 2006
Playshop Dance Company

This week has been weird.

Monday -- I felt so excited at first then at the end of the day, I felt so broken. The person that I loved so much is now someone whom I'm kind of mad at. :| I just wasted twenty-four days with that person. Gah. I felt so used, so stupid. My lovelife has been too broken to even think about. GAH. Thank god no tears fell from my eyes on the 24th day. :|

Oh, and to make things worse .. I hurt myself with masochisms once again. The scissors and the cutter were my best friends for the night. I slit my arm (and coincidentally [things ended on the 17th], there were ~~seventeen scars~~) and out of nowhere a bruise suddenly appeared. So much for that. I don't really know why but I love to hurt myself physically. It's not that I'm not thinking or what, maybe I'm just out of my mind >:-P

But then my week got better each day. Yesterday afternoon, someone from Playshop contacted me and asked me if I was interested to audition for the Playshop Dance Company. My heart skipped: OF COURSE I DO! (: I called them back and made a reservation, and they'll call/text me again for further information. I'm way too excited for this. (: I want to be part of the Playshop Dance Company. (: The person who contacted me told me that the Playshop Dance Company was somehow in-line with the Playshop Kids and all .. and that got me even more excited. It has always been my dream to become part of Playshop's pool of talents, and I've yet to fulfill my mission. (: I so am going to audition, and I will do better than what I did in the audition for the Playshop Teens last year. I have to pass this! This may sound totally weird but it has always been my dream to become famous and be a well-known and trained dancer. I now feel very enamored and pleased (: I am not letting this opportunity slip away! Playshop Dance Company, here I come! :D

Anyway, enough about Playshop :))

School has been great. We were supposed to have 4 long tests earlier but it was only the Geom test that pushed through. I love Math :P Annoying, the Social long test didn't push through -- ~~I studied pa naman for it.~~ :| hahaha. But at least I have more time to study now (: I'm enjoying Greek history. Hahaha.

Oh, and for the first time, I went to my mom's place on my own:)) well technically not, but I now have a new routine. Hahaha. My mom won't be picking me up at home anymore. We'd be meeting up in Gateway nalang so that we'll spend less money. Hahaha. Okay, like you care :P

I'll blog again later. :P

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Thursday, July 13, 2006
Fantastic Much <3

Finally.

I missed blogging. (:

I had made a post already earlier, then when I was about to publish the effin post, the electricity died. So much for that. I don't wanna repeat that LONG post anymore. :|

The past two weeks of my life have been fantastic:)) fantastic in a way that I was somehow happy, and somehow pissed. Balanced. Okay labo.

I love love love love someone so much right now. I don't know what I'd do without that someone. :)) yet it breaks my heart thinking about some stuff about this person. :| it hurts to love someone twice as much as you love yourself .. so I'm really trying not to. :D

And finally, after almost 20 hours of not talking to that person (and more than 24 hours of not seeing him, too), I got to call him at 2:30 pm :)) HOW PRECISE WAS THAT? :)) haha. But yeah, I miss him so much:)) haha. Clingy much? Sorry, I can't help it. I keep on calling him on his cell, and now I can imagine mama blabbing on me about how high my bill for the month is. :)) I'm gonna die if my effin' bill gets too high. Wooo, it rhymes. :)) anyway, babaw-ness. :| I'm too attached to this person now, and honestly, it sucks. It keeps on making me want to breakdown, and I don't know why. Happy this minute, then later on I'm all mad at him. Then things get fixed, then suddenly I feel bad again. Wtf. I hate this feeling. But I can't help falling deep in love. Why? `coz it feels like heaven to have someone by your side. Someone who'll make you feel secure. I love MY PROTECTOR so much :D

I shouldn't have put that up there, but I can't help it:)) maybe my teachers would snoop up my blog again (if they have before). I just felt scared:)) especially when Ms. Lariba told the class that the teachers have been reading our blogs and all, and now they taught us Netiquettes. :)) wow. I shouldn't be jotting down too much in here -- but really, I CAN'T HELP IT! :|

Anyway, my hands are tired. I've been doing my prop kanina pa. It's for the dance "Bulaklakan". I'm really not the crafty type of person so you can imagine how much sacrifice, "passion" and complaints I've passed through:)) but hey I'm proud of what I've done! An accomplishment must I say:)) haha.

Oh, and btw, I lost COL elections:)) wow, late news. :P but hey, I'm the Dance Troupe's President. :* this should be fun. :P

I gotta be back uh, later maybe. :)) I'll blog some more. :P

** Happy 4th Monthsary to Elisha and Raymond (:

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