Friday, September 1, 2006
Deep Thoughts Not So Deep =))))
It was only a few days ago when I've realized that I am the
very expressive type of person. I can't keep any of my thoughts, feelings or emotions locked up in me. Things keep babbling on through my head; certain things that can't wait to be released. I think it's my only way of escaping from my problems.
I used to believe in love, but as time passes by, my belief's slowly fading away. Why? Because love comes to me, then it suddenly leaves me. For instance, I had a friend, and I can call him one of my closest friends. There were rumors spreading that he and I had something going on, then suddenly, everything went away. We aren't that close anymore, in face, we rarely see each other. I know (and knew) that some sparkle between us were too impossible to happen, but only God knows our fate (: I was happy with the thought that we weould be together as a couple and I even imagined myself as the luckiest girl ever. Then in just a snap,
every bubble popped -- and I turned back to reality.
Then there came a lot more guys. I loved them, yes. And each and every memory of them are still treasured. But now, my heart's still attached to the one whom I loved so much recently. However, he let go, and I just cling on, hoping that he will somehow reach for me and save me anytime soon, before anybody else does.
As of now, I get the sweetest dreams, dreams of him and me together again. But I get hurt the moment I open my eyes for it hits me that it was just a dream, a dream when I was sleeping.
If there is nothing better to do, I spend my time creating quotes or searching for songs that I can relate to, and do one thing that I hate most - reminisce.
I will quit babbling on now about my personal thoughts and I will just blog about how my week went.
Saturday, I went to school for practice. I thought I was late but when I got there, they weren't even starting yet :P Our practice was supposedly for 4 hours but we are so great, it took us only 2 hours to practice =))))) I went to
Isay's crib after :D then ballet, wherein we had our vanity time again:)) pics will be uploaded later :P
Monday, we had our culminating activity for Buwan Ng Wika. I spent the first 2 periods of the day with the dance troupe, and we practiced for our dance
"Kahimanawari" if I'm not mistaken. The program started at 1 pm, and our dance was the first number that was presented. :D a lot happened then.
Palaro Ng Lahi came, and I was to play
Kadang-kadang. I started playing, but when I was about to reach the end, I lost balance, and
I passed out. People said I was motionless and stiff for about
5-10 seconds (story frightened me, btw). I woke up with almost everyone around me. It was embarrassing, though. The whole HS dept. witnessed it. :| But guys, thanks for the help :D Whatever happened made me feel so bad yet I felt loved, too. Hahaha weh corny, but yeah. :D thanks, guys! And thank God nothing worse happened to me. (:
Tuesday, it was kinda boring. I was weird, esp during CL time. I made a calendar (out of boredom and I wanted to sleep in class) and I counted days :)) It was pretty stupid actually. I even had precision. As of
last tuesday CL period, it has been
1 month, 11 days and 19 hours since we last spoke to each other. Beat thaaaaaat?! Dismissal time I spent with
Darling, Fer and Ara (:
Wednesday and Thursday were normal days for me. I haven't been going home with
Quel this week, I think she's mad at me. :| I have been hanging out with Darling and Ara. We always eat
kwek-kwek. =)) we got addicted. :P
Earlier, school was okay. Forgot what happened. Haha. First friday. :| dismissal I spent with Darling, Fer, Ara. Ara, Fer and I went to Mcdo then we saw
Isay and Rose Anne there so they sat with us. :D the rest left early, and I got left behind with Isay and Rose Anne. We waited for
Cyril and his teacher coz they were going to talk to Rose Anne about her being muse :D I got home at 7 pm for goodness sake=)))))
I'm going to school tomorrow for the
Quiz Bee thing in Social. Sucks, I'm so weak in history then they make me a candidate. Whattaaaaaa. :|
Anyway, this post is LONG. :))
I'm endin' it up here. Visit my
Multiply for new pics! :D
♥ Erix ♥
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